So I said I'd try...

And here I am trying. Question is, what do I say? We had an exercise in my 7th grade English class during our free-write sessions where if you couldnt think of anything to write, you just kept writing over and over, "I don't know what to write." I believe that was the only creative writing class I've ever taken. I really enjoyed it. I'd have to thank Mr. MacMillan for getting me into writing. I'd have to thank my last job for killing the passion. I know people say when you do what you love for a living, it doesn't feel like a job. My last job as an editor of a publication killed the passion I had for writing, as much as I wanted to write, I couldn't stand being in front of a keyboard anymore. That's another thing, writing on paper and typing on screen are two different worlds. The pencil in your hand (I hate pen) gives you a feeling of creation. Your own handwriting, as messy or as intricate as may be, is yours. People can identify your writing, they know you wrote this. On screen, every one by default is now Arial or Times New Roman. On this blog, feel free to call me Verdana.

For my little sister...

I was asked to do something for someone by doing something for me. As selfish as some people think me to be, I don't do much for me, there's no motivation for it. Nothing moves me to try and do something for myself mostly because I don't care to prove anything to myself. I won't get into what motivates me or why I do things because frankly, its not something I care to share with the general public. This probably leaves you thinking, "Well you opened up the subject."

Very true.

I haven't been here in almost 3 years. The last time I was here, it was a different person writing, a lot can happen in 3 years. I can tell you a lot happened in the month and a half following that last post that made this a different person, so you can imagine what 3 years has done. I don't know if I want to be here, I don't know if I want to be writing because this doesn't feel right. Like I said though, someone asked me to do something for them by doing something for me. So here's to trying...