Rage...

Sometimes things just really get to you; the way people can be inconsiderate, the way they can be stupid, their utter blindness to the obvious. I'm no exception I suppose, I probably piss people off to an extent I can only imagine. What do you do with the pent up rage that's accumulating constantly? What do you do when your escapes begin to frustrate you? How do you handle it when there is no release? Because the more you search and fail to find a release for the pent up anger, the more it builds up. I've tried my escapes, they aggravate me, they are no longer releases, they are sources of further rage. Eventually you reach a point where you will either explode or implode. I don't recall ever imploding. Though I don't recall exploding anytime recently, which is not a good thing either. It's about time for another explosion.

Expectations...

In our minds we all have expectations, there's no going around it. No matter whether it's the dish you ordered, the event you were going to, the person you're meeting for the first time, there's always an expectation in your mind. More often than not, your expectation is nothing "real", in the sense that if you try to visualize or describe your expectation, you are left without words. Hence an abstract expectation if you will. This abstract expectation is based solely on instinct and feelings and of course, preconceptions. For the sake of example, you answer the phone and its a deep bassy voice you've never heard...almost instantly you picture a rotund male, average, maybe slightly above average height. When you meet this person and realize he is a tiny skinny fellow, you're surprised. Even if this fellow turns out to be a medium height fat guy, chances are you will still be surprised when you see him. Which brings me to my point. No matter what the expectation, there will always be something that catches you off guard. And no matter how hard you try to put your finger on your expectation to materialize the abstract aspect of it, it will never happen. I call myself neither an optimist nor a pessimist, though others may tend to disagree either way, but the fact is, I find myself more disappointed and let down by my expectations than the reality of the situation had I evaluated it without the expectation.

Not my style..

"I'd say something classy, but that just wouldn't be my style" - The Replacements

Though this may be my first post, I do not feel the need to make an introduction or justify its creation/existence. Realistically speaking anyone reading this is probably someone that already knows me, so it would be ridiculous and redundant. However, I will take this opportunity to say, check back later, I'm bound to have a decent post at some point.