Sunday, June 13, 2010
Strange...
Saturday, June 13, 2009
So I said I'd try...
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
For my little sister...
Monday, October 02, 2006
What happened?
Stop today and you take stock of your life. Look around you. It nothing like what you had imagined or what you had in mind. Some of you might be disappointed, some of you might be overwhelmed, some might be stunned or shocked. I'm in awe. I never could have seen me in this light. I'd never have imagined that I'd be where I am and doing what I'm doing, living how I'm living. I never pictured this. How many of you, truly thought you'd be where you are today, doing what you're doing, living how you're living? Is it the job you'd wanted? Is it the career you'd chosen? Are you with the person you'd imagined? Are you in the country where you wanted to be?
I don't know how my life got to be the way its today, most people wont be able to look back and say, that's the definitive moment where my life changed direction from what I wanted to what I have now. But the big question is, how many are truly happy? If you're not happy, could it be because you're so attached to that dream in your head that you don't appreciate what you have now? Are you stuck in what might have been to enjoy what is? Are you missing out on what you have today? What if one day you open your eyes and what you have now is gone?
Pray that one day you open your eyes and you can see. You can see what you hadn't seen before. You can let go of your past dreams and learn to create new ones that you can work for while being happy with what you have. A large part of being happy is being content with what you have. I'm not saying don't have dreams and ambitions, but be grateful for what you have in hand before you go for better, because you never know when it may all be gone.
In an instant your life can change, for better or for worse. I know my life did, I didn't even realize when it happened. I'm blessed, my life changed and I woke up seeing my life, seeing what I had, the people in it, my family, my friends. I felt God come back into my life. My life has changed, if you called it a miracle you wouldn't be far off. I was very fortunate and I hope others are too. I'm just scared for those out there who are missing out on what they have because they are thinking about what they want to have.
You may think that I'm a nut or talking nonsense or being all preachy about how to think and live life. But I can tell you this, I'm truly happy.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Revisionist History...
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Let Down...
I've come to learn, the hard way might I add, that people, no matter who, will at some point, whether intentionally or unintentionally, will let you down. I'm not referring to being let down in the sense of showing up late or forgetting to bring something you asked them to. I'm talking about a serious let down, a crucial let down that changes your life. It's the worse kind of let down, it is a let down that tips the scales of life, causes a disturbance in the precious balance, shatters hopes and beliefs, cause hatred and disgust; though it may seem an exaggeration, you will face it, you will know it and you will understand it. You cannot, simply cannot, rely on anyone. Granted, in the world we live in and the lives we lead, often times its not much of a choice but a necessity; a flaw in our societies in my opinion. The more self-reliant one becomes, the more you know what really is going on and when there is a let down, it is you doing it to yourself. That is something I can handle, me letting myself down. Trusting someone with something so simple but important that when they screw up, and they will, it totally destroys your perception of your life, is indescribable. That I cannot handle. I do not know whether to kill or cry.